that there must be some way to live moment by moment- as the buddhists claim to work towards. i haven't figured out that technique yet- or at least not to the point where i can still see a future. yes, i realize that no one knows what the hell i am talking about- but that's ok. the brain is trying to make sense of the world at large and it's issues; mortality and life issues, and family crap. sigh. being an adult and being responsible sucks big time. i can see why so many folks avoid it- or try to. perhaps that's what i should try to do instead. happy hot monday.