Tuesday, April 14, 2015

reality check

i spent a few years blogging and investigating via the internet....and with each piece of information, my mom and i put together what we saw happening to this country and what we thought would happen....and i did a fair amount of writing and pleading and yelling at people to try and make them 'do something'....and i couldn't understand why....i still have some bouts of frustration about it...

but i understand a bit better now....i understand the bewilderment and the anger and the fear....the waves of hopelessness and powerlessness and helplessness...i have felt it too....and i also feel bitterness and anger at times at my country and at my fellow americans...for ruining my country and my planet for greed's sake....

mom and i talked about what we could expect out of the future...the impending collapse of our entire system- economics; water wars; food shortages...a new civil war based on ideology of right versus left instead of geography of north and south- although, the two are not mutually exclusive...the power structure versus the rest of us....and it's coming....

and we are here at the start of another silly season and there are many of us who are being brainwashed and/or bullied to vote for people who are not in our best interests...we are being served up a big heaping plate of 'lesser of two evils' casserole again...and no one who spews that nonsense offers to hold their party accountable....they don't offer to hold their incumbents or their candidates to a higher standard....they don't agitate for a better way....they believe that their vote is sacred and once it is cast- they have done what they needed to do for their country....

and they bully people with integrity...people who understand that this country is over and has been for some time....people who understand that the election system, and every system, has been corrupted and co-opted in order to maintain the status quo....to give the illusion of choice and democracy....to keep us fighting each other for scraps....

we have come to the end of the line with this grand experiment....soon, we will have no choice but to pick a side- oppressed or oppressor....and our votes won't matter then either....

Thursday, April 02, 2015

life's journey

i visited a couple of friends this week from my hometown and as i was driving back home through the rain, i teared up a bit too.....change comes hard....these last few years for me have been good and bad- happy and sad....i have been thinking about the past and the present and a bit about the future and have had a difficult time organizing my thoughts around my feelings...

my friends and i have been dealing with ageing parents and the issues facing them while processing the life changing realities of mortality and loss....watching parents struggle with illnesses brought on by life choices that were normal when they were young is not easy....straddling the line between maintaining their basic human adult autonomy and dignity and taking over daily tasks is tough....

and when you look into a pair of eyes that no longer recognize you after two decades...well, a piece of your soul is torn....

my life's journey has been turning to face a past i tried to outrun....reconciling relationships i had tried to sever and navigating the world of adult children and ailing parents....i am not alone....but it isn't easy....

dusting off the cobwebs

i haven't felt inspired to write in quite some time....life has a way of sucking the life out of you...significant losses rendered me mute...no one wants to read 'debbie downer' posts...it has been statistically proven :)

used to use this space for large chunks of political postings...and i may still from time to time....but i miss my blog buddies who have passed....i miss their voices and their spirits and their friendship....blogging for me cannot be the same...i suppose that is what life is all about- the slow/fast march of time....and changes....

Sunday, July 14, 2013

just my ideas on race

whew! hotter than hades this summer...and i don't mean just the weather...the simmering pot of racism has finally bubbled over and spilled all over the stove...no, america doesn't believe in 'melting pots' more of a vanilla milkshake...

i am white...let's be honest, i resemble casper's girlfriend i am that white...i grew up in rural places and i didn't mix it up a lot...there really weren't many folks of color in my community in upstate new york and when i lived in rural florida- well, the people of color 'knew their place' and were consigned to shacks on the other side of town over the railroad tracks...the town fathers decided to throw the anti segregationists a bone and our middle school was built 'in the black section' of town and we were bused over every day so i actually got to see where the black folks lived...i lived in a trailer home so i figured their homes looked quite a bit like mine...

my father's mother's family was native american....but he grew up poor white american and his whole family- with the exception of his youngest sister- served in the armed forces...my father can't stand republicans...the entire rest of his family were republicans...go figure...

i say this because we have an opportunity...let's lay our cards out on the table...white people don't like people of color because

1) they fear them
2) they feel that they are inferior

what other reasons are there?  isn't that what it boils down to?  'but i am not a racist' most white folks claim- perhaps not but we white folks have to start by understanding a few things- and i am by no means an expert these things have occurred to me over a lifetime (so far) of learning and listening

white folks have 'white privilege' - yes, yes we do...our whole culture was set up to favor white males...now, that doesn't make all white males racist but like it or not- the culture still favors white males

it also favors white females over people of color in general although we ladies have our work cut out for us in the civil liberties department

white people 'don't get' black culture...well, we aren't meant to- it's their culture...we have spent centuries excluding them from ours...white people need to understand that WE excluded people of color from the mainstream white culture...we really can't get our knickers in a twist over that...

white folks believe that people of color are lazy welfare moochers...they should 'get a job' and 'speak english' and whatnot...well, since the pecking order is white men, white women, people of color....guess who generally don't get hired? guess who has to find other means of supporting themselves?

people of color should behave as 'normal' families and get married and settle down and raise kids...they should stop getting put in jail and having kids all over the place...yep...probably more stable for them but many of them do...surprise! many people of color work multiple jobs just to make ends meet and care for their kids and most of the folks taking advantage of our social services are poor white folks predominately in the south...again, that white prism to look through...

i was re-reading parts of 'league of the iroquois' by lewis henry morgan and as i read the passages that were written in the 1850's, i realized how that mentality still resonates with many in america today...the idea that anyone other than white folks are 'savages' who aren't as smart or innovative or 'good' as white folks...white folks have attempted to obliterate native cultures, african cultures and latino cultures on this continent and force them to assimilate to what? consumerism? capitalism? wanton resource taking?

the issue isn't so much with the overt racists in this country...the issue is with the many of us who aren't honest about how we feel about people of color and why...why is it that most of the people i have seen throughout my facebook world who were in favor of the recent zimmerman acquittal have been white? why is it that white folks still deny that there is racial profiling and incarceration of many more black and hispanic folks than white? why do we feel safe when we see white cops beating up on minority folks? why do we lock our doors in our cars when we see a black man walking down the street assuming he's going to pick our car to jack?

why don't we assume he's walking on his way to work or at the very least- why would we assume he would want to harm us- of all other people? those are the questions we have to ask ourselves because the reality is- white folks are becoming the minority around the globe and we should be asking ourselves- do we want to be treated the way that we treat others? we won't always have guns and bombs to 'keep us safe'...and isn't it easier to get to know each other as people- to pool the resources we have left and to realize that we are all the same underneath the skin? 100% human beings?