getting back on track

i have to admit- i am in a pretty good funk right now. i don't know if it's because it's february and cold and snowy- or just the stress of life in general- but i am not feeling the magic. i don't want to do anything and everything seems to be a hassle. since i can't curl up in a ball and die- i suppose i will have to put my big girl panties on and deal with it. sigh.... in the grander scheme of things i have life pretty good. especially compared with many in the world at large. it is really tough to remember that when facing taking my mother out in this weather because she somehow got an eye infection and god forbid they put an otc eye medication out there. there are topical antibiotic creams for everything else- but not eyes. and i have been procrastinating something fierce on the job search. sigh... i so do not want to have to get a part time job... especially in a tight job market where there are folks who need full time work to feed their families. but that isn't the reason i don't want the job- i don't like working with the public. if i could get a job that put me in a back room somewhere to make widgets, that would be grand. but, that's not the way life is. i realize i am complaining and whining- and i will eventually get myself together. sigh... but not after sighing repeatedly at least 8 more times.... sigh....