still don't have thoughts focused

i don't know that i ever will- so here goes- open thread friday...

i cannot take the american way of life and politics seriously anymore. i simply can't. it is all farce. everything is image and no substance. truly. the sad state of affairs is- the rest of the world is being ruined- i mean westernized- and taking the planet down with us. i don't give a rat's ass if obama can bowl. who the fuck cares? i can't bowl either- does that make me less than a human being? i can't swim either and i suck at math. seriously. mccain is touting the economy as better under bush and clinton can't seem to move on past the bitter reverend wright. how can i take that seriously? you know what i do take seriously? the fact that american citizens are being rounded up regularly and arrested and held indefinitely- and this isn't newsworthy but barack obama bowling is.

i find it sad that people are starving in other countries and we throw away food like it isn't a precious commodity. ditto with water. we can have one of the largest fountains in the world in the middle of the nevada desert for tourists- and not blink an eye. we are asleep if we think it isn't going to be a major problem. i find it perplexing that the current regime just keeps on ticking like the energizer bunny- continuing to gut the government agencies' departments and funnel the money to private contractors they have ties to while our cities infrastructures crumble to the ground- and no one seems to notice. i find it sad that americans still think that the world views us as the best country on the planet and that we are still a world superpower.

it's time to let go. i decided awhile ago not to keep beating dead horses- i just write or post whatever now because it is not worth it. global climate change and the earth's changing is happening faster than anyone ever imagined it would. even experts are saying that. the economy isn't really better under bush (i guess mccain forgot like he did the differences between sunni and shia in the area of the world we are at war with- but hey- you can't expect him to remember everything- he's over 70 years old)- in fact, it's pretty bad. i am hoping that it gets a little better soon- or my husband may not have a job. and i am too old to learn how to turn tricks ;) it's humor. i would never prostitute myself. anyhoo- i have taken the attitude that it's better that folks keep their delusions. it's why i don't rail against the stupidity of religion anymore. folks need something to comfort them- and if believing in a make believe man-made god helps- hey- more power to ya.

so- here i am. on the road to as much self sufficiency as i can manage. my buddy dan'l tells me time and again that i cannot take the weight of the world on my shoulders. and he is correct. but i won't let him know that ;) i hate to say that i feel that i have to look out of me and my family- and i really can't worry about anyone else. i have done my best to research and share my findings with folks- and what they do with the info is entirely up to them. besides, if we had millions of people unplugging from the system at once- it would collapse entirely. and i am not above being selfish in that vein. we are all plugged into parts of the system and we all need it right now.

it isn't fair that anyone should have to live in times like these, but people have been persevering though them for millennia. i never thought i would be staring down the barrel of a police state gun- but that's what it is starting to shape up to. so it goes. there will probably be a time when i don't bother to blog anymore- but at this point- i value the friendships i have made. and i value the time spent engaging with real people. and so onward....

"And if I can't hear the music
and the audience is gone
I'll dance here on my own"