what i think about

i know i haven't been particularly 'newsy' or horribly informative these days. it has been more commentary than i have written in oh- 1200posts or so :) but it is mass consolidation in my brain. my brain is kind of a concrete one- give it info and it will churn out a response- and i can multitask like nobody's business- but it tends to take some time. i have been amassing information over the last 2 years and absorbing it- and then, all hell broke loose and the media is vomiting corruption and whatnot all over the media outlets. too much information. and the bottom line- i don't really give a flying fuck anymore. looking at the bigger picture- you have to know when to fish or cut bait- and this is a time to cut bait and enjoy what time we have left on this planet. defeatist? perhaps- but realistically and from my pov- we do not have the time to right the wrongs that continue to be perpetrated as i type- before the planet becomes uninhabitable. i know some folks don't believe me- that's their right. and it most likely won't happen in my lifetime- fingers crossed on that one. sorry if you have kids or grandkids- but that's the way the cookie crumbles. you can't have your spacious home that takes 8,000 dollars to heat and cool- and drive your suv to the mall every week- and expect that things are just going to work themselves out because you'd rather think the best. i am not as callous as i sound- but i can only meet you half way. we can't have everything our way- doesn't work that way. the planet isn't going to explode or anything and in the grander scheme of things- something besides cockroaches will survive- but really what are we saving? 3/4 of the world lives in poverty- millions die of disease brought on by malnutrition and lack of clean water- but goddamnit! we are americans. did we work for what we have? sure. but we have also destroyed as much as we have created. and really- in the grander scheme of things- we are not nice people. we aren't. we take pills so that we don't have to look at ourselves and see below the surface because we know we aren't good people.

i read a fellow blogger's blog- and i am not linking because i don't want to embarrass or whatnot this person- and this person was talking about taking in a couple of young men who are gay- because their families wouldn't accept them. because they are gay. another blogger- proud progressive- is campaigning on behalf of transgendered folks because apparently, they are the 'red headed step children' of the lgbt crowd. don't get me started on the gated communities to keep 'colored' folk out- not to mention the reality of us sucking up 25% of the entire world's resources with a population of something like 300 million. this bogus war on christmas makes me want to hurl. exactly what traditions are we celebrating? the christians stole the holiday from the pagans anyway. the actual birthday of jesus is unknown and was moved at least twice before the ancient romans settled on the saturnalia to have it. i mean- hell- we switch any birthday around so we can have a long weekend- so who exactly is at war with christmas? and what exactly are we celebrating? i read in the ap today about 'christian ministries' that preach that god wants his children to reap material rewards here on earth. that's funny- my copy of the bible doesn't say that- and i have read it 3 times all the way through. you reap what you sow- i guess that christianity is 'evolving' in this consumeristic society. and yes, that's heavily laden sarcasm.

the other thing i have been thinking about is our 'sensitive natures' here in america. god forbid anyone get their feelings hurt. oh- and don't talk about negative stuff at holiday time (which stretches back into july now) for fear of ruining the cmas buzz of happiness and good will and an all around norman rockwellian feel. i have no idea where i came from- perhaps there are other planets because i sure as hell don't fit in here. this society baffles me with the self centered denial. i was grateful to be done with adolescence and i can't for the life of me figure out why folks want to stay in suspended animation there. if anyone knows- please clue me in. thus concludes my daily rant. thank you.