not to pick on daniel- i love him and his blog to pieces- but he brought up an interesting point in my last post- the diamonds and stones one. he said
'somehow we have to keep looking forward; keep hoping; keep trying to make things better.'
normally, i would kick into fighter mode and come out swinging for the underdog, but i don't think i can this time. i have had a fundamental shift in the way i see things. i don't doubt global warming exists and that it's man-made- and nothing that i have seen in humankind's history suggests to me that we will do anything more than destroy ourselves. the shift in my thinking is- that's not necessarily a bad thing. sure, we have the power within us- and the numbers- to make a change for the better- but we never have and we never do. what exactly is it that i am supposed to look forward to? economic hardships and more war? water drying up and food supplies cut off? what exactly is it i am supposed to hope for? that folks will get their heads out of their collective asses in time to save this species? who am i trying to make things better for? the new crop of people who will continue along in the same vein as the last few thousand years?
my thought is this- and you can call me selfish if you want, it's alright- i am going to live my life as best as i can. i am going to be as environmentally responsible as i can be- as self sufficient as i can be- and as peaceful as i can be. but i am going to do so off of the radar. i have no desire to be labelled a dissenter because i do not want to go off to a secret detention facility where my family never knows what happened to me. my husband and sister will be all i have left when my mother dies- and they both need me. i don't need to hear about more corruption or greed or lying or hypocrisy to know that this country is dying. we, the people, have sucked the goodness out that once was the ideal of america. what we get we deserve- especially the ones who spent $400 on an xbox after standing in line at the store for a week. peace to everyone- i will be attempting to make fudge today- and drink tea. hopefully, today won't be as rocky.