i don't really know what to do with myself these days. i have a good life. oh, what to blog about today? what home improvement project to work on? how should i start planning for the holiday season? i am an american. i doubt highly anyone begrudges me my citizenship at all. of course, i can't speak for others. i guess i am wondering what we are doing? i have a feeling that i am not the only one with that question these days. i have a feeling that there are lots of us who don't really know what the fuck to do with ourselves. i suppose i should explain what i mean as the printed word doesn't really convey my meaning.
it has occurred to me that knowing what i know of human history- we as a group don't change all that much. we still have our large, seething masses of poor in slums; we still have our bourgeois class in the middle living comfy lives and we have the attilas and the alexanders at the top- taking out anyone who gets in their way. and-- basically, anyone is expendable. i expect that i am like many folks here in america- i try not to think of the world's issues at large because they are big and overwhelming and never ending. there is so much suffering it hurts my heart to think about it. i think what drives me over the edge is the fact that there is so very much greed and power hunger that is driving the planet- and most folks just want to live their lives and love their families and friends. they want enough food and water and shelter to live and they want their children to grow strong and be proud of them. that is true whether you are from africa the middle east or the west- or anywhere on the planet.
america and the west don't have the market cornered on corruption but we are the basis for much of it. why? the money is here. whenever i read about africa or the middle east or southeast asia or south america- basically anywhere else on the planet other than north america and europe- we have our hands in suffering. we pollute and mistreat and bribe and kill our way into huge profits and then wonder why the seething masses of poor hate us and want to kill us- in the name of god or poverty who really cares at this point. sigh. and yet, the world goes around and around. seasons change- not quite like they used to- and people go about their daily lives. around the suffering. there is no reason for the victimization of the katrina folks in the gulf; there is no reason for the brutality and violence in rwanda or darfur or anywhere in africa; there is no reason for the unbridled suffering and poverty in afghanistan and iraq and palestine. no reason save one- greed. the other 6 deadly sins are just offshoots of greed.
and this has been the same wheel that has turned for millennia. and that is why i have no hope that things will ever change. there have been legions of well meaning folks before that try to alleviate the suffering of others- but it's a drop in the bucket. why? because there are always more greedy people than unselfish. and they are the ones who stop at nothing to get what they want. think about the few at the top in any world government and then think about the minions who do their bidding. all cut from the same cloth. greed is the force that rules the world. greed will destroy the human race. taking millions of innocents along for the ride.
i am going to the forum and the corner for some solace.