this journey is ending

in 2006, i started this blog and launched myself into uncharted waters...over the years, i learned much about myself and met many real and interesting people....had my share of debates :) and did my share of fluffy cat posts :)

and along my journey i meandered until i got tired....i got tired of fighting people i thought were on the same side as i....and the blogosphere changed and the internets changed....and i lost my love of blogging....and i lost people i loved....

one thing i did learn quickly about blogging and the internets- relationships do form and bonds can be just as tight with 'cyber buddies' as in 'real life'....and i became a part of people's lives i never met face to face...and they mine...and i started losing them....bro tim, dan'l, spadoman....and it kind of cut the soul out of my words....

i wander over here from time to time and the itch is sometimes there....but i can't blog here...this place with my memories...and my words have changed and grown and started to meander in a different direction....but this place is still here and will always be here as part of my heart....

this is for my buddy- spadoman...

When you wake up
Turn your radio on
And you'll hear this simple song

That I made up
That I made up for you

When you're driving
Turn your radio up
Cause I can't sing loud enough
All these days
To get my message through

If time is all I had
I'd waste it all on you
Each day I'll turn it back
It's what the broken hearted-do
I'm tired of talking to an empty space
Of silences keeping me awake

When you marry and you look around
I'll be somewhere in that crowd
Torn up that it isn't me
When we're older and the memories fade
I know I'll still feel the same, yeah
For as long as I live

And if time is all I had
I'd waste it all on you
Each day I'll turn it back
It's what the broken hearted-do
I'm tired of talking to an empty space
Of silences keeping me awake

Won't you say my name one time
Please, just say my name

And if time is all I had
I'd waste it all on you
Each day I'll turn it back
It's what the broken hearted-do
I'm tired of talking to an empty space
Of silences keeping me awake

If time is all I had
I'd waste it all on you
Each day I'll turn it back
It's what the broken hearted-do
I'm tired of talking to an empty space
Of silences keeping me awake

Won't you say my name
When the song is over?

crankypants

i had two great blog pals- dan'l and spadoman...i could email them daily and have epic rants and they would know just what to say to bring me around to sane again...i don't have them anymore to rely on so i tend to get myself into a pickle on social media now and again...i don't know why i bother to venture an opinion there...it isn't the right forum for me...but i'm a glutton for punishment...

i continue to have trouble wrapping my mind around how women, in particular, can be an adherent to christianity in our culture....mostly because most of us women have the freedom to choose in this country...no matter how nice the person is or how many good works they accomplish, christianity has the stigma of being a patriarchal and controlling religion....no matter how many good works done or how strong the faith- women will always be second class citizens....going to church with like minded people only perpetuates the cycle....

'oh my church doesn't teach that or believe that' well, according to your christian bible- it should....according to the christian bible- women are lesser than men....lgbt should not be tolerated....non christians will burn in hell for all eternity and on and on....and if you aren't reading that and having it preached to you- your church is cherry picking just as surely as the churches who are.....

anyway, i am glad that there are so many 'good' christians out there....i am glad that they are doing 'good works' and that they have strong belief and faith in their religion....and i am glad that the women in these churches are happy to be second class citizens....

i, for one. am not....oh, and i don't eat babies either....

human arrogance and white supremacy

i know better than to log into facebook...i always get myself into trouble when i do.  firstly, if you post on facebook and you have friended me- i take that to mean that you welcome my perspective...i try to remain tactful and on point- especially if i disagree with your post...if you're posting for sympathy, generally i roll my eyes and keep moving...

anyone who follows me on facebook knows how much i love ricky gervais....i admire his talent and his big heart when it comes to animals...nothing angers him more than those who mistreat and abuse animals...i'm right there with him...right now- he is taking on the trophy hunters and the rampant killing by billionaires of the endangered species of big cats, rhinos, elephants, giraffes, etc....

as for me, well, i pick smaller game it guess...it really pisses me off that so many people view other animals as inferior to us simply because they don't build skyscrapers and speak english...well, they don't destroy the planet with their hubris and greed either...and when i hear folks talk about getting a pet and 'trying it out' to see if that animal is a 'good fit' like it's a shoe or a purse- it bugs me....something else that pisses me off is humans dumping pets on the streets or in the country- or even a shelter- because they can no longer take care of them or they are too much work...really?

would you do that to your child? your elderly relative? some would undoubtedly but most 'good people' change diapers for their children or loved one....clip their nails and cut their hair...find a sitter if they need to go away....feed them...so tell me again how an animal that shares our home and lives isn't the same as another human living in our house....

other species think and feel and have distinct personalities- i could list examples....we all know dolphins and whales are smart....we know that elephants are smart....pigs are highly intelligent...explain to me again why it's ok for us to adopt an animal but if we don't like it- we get rid of it....

i suppose there's no difference in white men believing that everyone else is inferior....