Sunday, March 18, 2012

where i am

not as a good a place as i have been in the not too recent past- but that's life...my own life is pretty different- i have a second elderly parent i am caring for and have transitioned mom off to mostly my sister as i have had to bring my estranged father here...not where i imagined my life headed- but hey, that's life :) spring is here in upstate new york- or i should say summer as we went from 40 degrees to 75 degrees with no transition....but the naysayers still pooh pooh global climate change...as morpheus says "some things never change but some things do..."

i haven't really felt able to get my feet under me since last summer....one thing after another has really thrown me off balance and right now i am stable...loss is loss- and i lost my sophie and a friend at work within a week of each other...i lost my life as i knew it when my father got sick and most recently- i lost my mechanic....went out of business due to slow business because people would rather get their oil changed at those chain stores or their mufflers done at monroe or their brakes at mienke instead of local...choices folks...choices...

although, "choice is the illusion between those with power and those without" to paraphrase the merovingian...been watching the matrix lately- can you tell? :)

i hope to not be working past june because i have to settle things for my parents- selling properties and whatnot and i simply don't have enough of me to go around...it seems like everyone needs or wants a piece of my time and i simply don't have it working full time and spending the rest of my time playing catch up and filling in chores and whatnot...there will come a time when i can breathe again...when i will have my space to myself again...but life will never be the same as it was...it can't be- it's the nature of things...change...

which leads me back to silly season here in america...it heartens me to see many more folks waking up to the fact that all is not well here...it disheartens me that folks continue to place blame where it's convenient rather than where it would deserve to fall- president obama does not shoulder full blame for everything wrong in this country and i hope to goodness that people realize that the republican way of living life is simply wrong...is that judgmental? you bet...being close minded, bigoted, misogynistic, capitalistic, war mongering, and fear driven has not worked out well for this country or the world...

what we need is to turn our backs on and ostracize whole swaths of the american population- people who believe that white is right and that women should be subservient to men or that foreign folks have no business to live on this planet- well, they don't deserve to be part of any society...in fact, they should be locked within their gated enclaves and left there...the reality is- we need to learn to get along with the rest of the world- over 5 billion of them are non english speaking, non white folks who have lived millennium without us around and have done just fine...in fact, most of our world has been founded on those same foreign folks and our claim to fame is mostly destruction...

at any rate, global climate change is real- the pollution and destruction of our world's resources is real and we are most certainly going to have to get along with other folks because our quest for greedy profits has outsourced most of our needs- food, water, etc.. sorry to say that 'made in america' doesn't mean much these days...also, women are 50% of the world's population and one day when people realize that religion is bullshit fabricated by sociopaths in order to keep folks in line- women will realize that they are 50% of the world's population and take their place as a full fledged member of the human race...

there is little genetic difference under the skin for the human race- 99% or so of our dna is identical based on gender....the differences that cause us to see others as inferior- are psychological....and that's crazy....

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